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		04:41pm 02/10/2006

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Some various pics of me rockin it..
		04:08pm 28/07/2006
	Here are some Pics from various gigs i have played the last few months...
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Some new shiot...its been a while..

04:06pm 28/07/2006

mood:

bored

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Come check out some nice DNB
		02:27pm 10/11/2005
	Come for the cheap drinks and nice Drum n Bass.
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Just a flash back to some shit....

11:05am 08/11/2005

mood:

accomplished

Just a flash back to some shit some haterz had to say about me and my peeps...

OoSmeLLinELLenoO (10:40:35 PM): lauren smokes?
OoSmeLLinELLenoO (10:40:45 PM): i dont i quit a couple
weeks ago
kngadwhmy (10:40:49 PM): aparently she does now, i
seen that shit
OoSmeLLinELLenoO (10:41:00 PM): saw that shit
kngadwhmy (10:41:02 PM): where did u see the pic?
OoSmeLLinELLenoO (10:41:06 PM): ancils journal
kngadwhmy (10:41:10 PM): same
kngadwhmy (10:41:16 PM): that mother fucker is fat
OoSmeLLinELLenoO (10:41:21 PM): she might as well
snort coke with them or do some shrooms
OoSmeLLinELLenoO (10:41:31 PM): because he drinks and
does all sorts of drugs all the time
OoSmeLLinELLenoO (10:41:54 PM): hes sick looking, im
so embarrassed with my past decisions
OoSmeLLinELLenoO (10:42:52 PM): he does E all the time
kngadwhmy (10:43:09 PM): cool

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WOW LOOK HOW SICK AND FAT WE LOOK....Wish I could be more like pancake nipps...Cool..

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Honey

01:45pm 09/08/2005

mood:

fucking work!

I've given a lot of thought to the nights we use to have
The days have come and gone
Our lives went by so fast
I faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor
Where I laid and told you, but you swear you loved me more

Do you care if i don't know what to say
Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
Will i shake this off pretend its all okay
That there's someone out there who feels just like me
There is

Those notes you wrote me
I've kept them all
With every single letter in every single word
There will be a hidden message about a boy that
loves a girl

Do you care if i don't know what to say
Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
Will i shake this off, pretend its all okay
that there's someone out there who feels just like me
There is:

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Update

04:38pm 03/08/2005

mood:

artistic

Just wanted to Update....with some words...let people know what is up..
I've been spending a lot of time at home working on some tracks which alot of you don't give a fuck about...
Recently trying to contact some old friends through my spcae...
Made a new mix and it is being hosted on a couple sites and mirrored on DNB forum and midwest dnb.
Had the best bday if you all didn't notice....
I got a 100$ gift certificate for records at the most awesome record store yet.
Had a great time walking around NY with my zombie-Angel.
Had a great meal on Tim at this nice expensive place called the silver swan.
Stayed up all night and then drove to the twin towers at daybreak after visiting the graff wall of fame..
I am currently thinking about moving Possibly NYC but still just in thought nothing serious yet...
Trying to save money and do the whole damn thing.
Going to Buzz alot lately to considering Sonar has been sucking ass....
Having the Greatest dinners made by Rys.....
And thinking about getting into Photography hardcore again..
Well thats all for now.....Most respect----> ..//Anc\\..

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John b In the Mix....

02:00pm 16/07/2005

mood:

awake

Best John B set-DC-Buzz-7/15/05.....2 hours of john B in the Mix...wit my Hunny of course........

( John B..... )

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This is a very long update....Get ready...for lots-o-pix

03:19pm 15/07/2005

mood:

Mellow mood has Got me

This is gonna be a very big update and hope everyone enjoys...

this is from the last 2 1/2 weeks up to my Bday July 11th...

Lots and lots and lots and lots of

( PIX )

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05:17pm 06/07/2005

mood:

thinking of wild times

shit has been pretty chill lately...vacationing and whatnot...My Bday in like a couple days...
NYC in 4 days.....Drum n bass Non stop...
I miss my cd's...They got me again! fuckers...

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random notes on a rainy day

01:42pm 27/06/2005

mood:

grateful

How beautiful the way the sun sets. As we stared up at the same sky, and swore that for an eternity that the stars would collide. I can reach the sky, but I still can't touch your heart. Can we dream of tomorrow when we can't even get through today? As forever fades away I will carry these blades on paper cut hands. I'll cross my heart in hopes that I would die. Throught a plethora of screams, they can't hear my cries. In these echoes of silence, I can hear the angels sing, yearning for forgiveness, and the healing of broken wings with hearts on fire. I'm praying for the clouds to hold me in its embrace. I am trying to stand on these broken legs. Reflecting on memories I have so yearned to erase. Tears run for so long that I have gotten used to the taste. For hours I tried to outrun the sun, tried to speak with a mouthful of blood. But still I'm choking on your tears, still I'm choking on you tears. Words slowly fall of my tongue, maybe I never tried, hard enough, all these times. The air seems so damn still today when emptiness is all we have to fill the vacancies. You lied when you said it would all be okay. You lied when you said tomorrow is merely another day away. When the sun never rises wherever you are, you begin to lose track of the stars.

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update...chyea..

01:31pm 13/06/2005

mood:

lala land...no work & Bored

There has been a lot going on lately...
First off me and rys have been having the time of our lives...we are so deeply involved with each other it just keeps getting better...
She just got her dreads done too..pretty Rad..they are really tight so they are kinda stiff but by the end of the summer I think they should be rockin..
I've been getting a lot of good jungle tracks late from High Contrast,Juju,Calibre,Cyantific,Fresh & Pendulum...ect...
really focusing on dnb...putting a lot of mind and brains to work...

but most importantly I hear that there has been some rumors about me floating around the fuckin essex area..about me harassing amberlee.
she has been telling people I have been doing whatever I can to get a hold of her and try to hang out...but I'm sure you all know that shit is false..
I mean come on...I was with Rysia nakey in my bed and amberlee was sending me text messages like "I want that dick in the back of my throat" I have them on my phone still to prove da shit..not nice to run your mouth when the shit is all about yourself looking stupid and shit..so if it is anyone...it was her....the Drama starting bitch she is...Only time I talked to her was when I told her I wanted my hook ups hoody back..and she said I don't deserve MY hoody back..
well it's ok.....I'd rather not have to deal with her crying ass anyway...I'm am glad she is pretty much fully off my back and outta my life...
CAN WE SAY PSYCHO?
I am Glad I have a chick that is into the same scene and the same hobbies and interests....it's nice...and it's been a while..
I wouldn't want her anyother way....she does the damn thing..!!!!
Vacation to NY real Soon....can't wait...Break Beat Science! woot!

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a whole gang of pix

09:45pm 06/06/2005

mood:

Tired

( ..A major,Serious Update.. )

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Have you Heard?

03:31pm 24/05/2005

mood:

fucked up on the finest drugs

Have you Heard about the New Cool Kidds?

Don't you wanna be cool Like us?Get down Like us..
Since we are so cool and Evil Kidds...?Talked about like us Cool Kidds?
I'm glad we are the subject of others that don't know a damn thing..Keep up the good gossip....and remember kidds..
Sniff that coke and drink like theres no tomorrow..

OoSmeLLinELLenoO (10:40:35 PM): lauren smokes?
OoSmeLLinELLenoO (10:40:45 PM): i dont i quit a couple
weeks ago
kngadwhmy (10:40:49 PM): aparently she does now, i
seen that shit
OoSmeLLinELLenoO (10:41:00 PM): saw that shit
kngadwhmy (10:41:02 PM): where did u see the pic?
OoSmeLLinELLenoO (10:41:06 PM): ancils journal
kngadwhmy (10:41:10 PM): same
kngadwhmy (10:41:16 PM): that mother fucker is fat
OoSmeLLinELLenoO (10:41:21 PM): she might as well
snort coke with them or do some shrooms
OoSmeLLinELLenoO (10:41:31 PM): because he drinks and
does all sorts of drugs all the time
OoSmeLLinELLenoO (10:41:54 PM): hes sick looking, im
so embarrassed with my past decisions
OoSmeLLinELLenoO (10:42:52 PM): he does E all the time
kngadwhmy (10:43:09 PM): cool

snort coke with them or do some shrooms
snort coke with them or do some shrooms
snort coke with them or do some shrooms

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it has been a week or so..

01:00pm 20/05/2005

mood:

chyea for boobies..

This weekend I am taking time to relax..I'm not exactly where or what..but relax and my tables is all I really want to get into...well that and some dirty nasty sex with my baby"rysia" don't get her confused with Baby..lol...enjoy my pics..wanka!

( the pics begin... )

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.....have you ever......

05:41pm 13/05/2005

mood:

my cd's are gone...

Have you ever felt like you lost your mind and would like to give your brain a rest?
Well now you can...here at The One Stop Head Shop!
and remember live or die....make your choice.
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update.....

01:38pm 07/05/2005

mood:

amused

Last Night Went to see Dj Dinfamaus who fuckin rocked a killer long set @ Buzz
it was his bday extra long set..Then Marky Came on and supised the shit outta me!!!Me and Rys both forgot that buzz is till like 4 and shit so we didn't get home til like 4:30.
Ran Into an old old mall rat buddy of mine who used to work at bull on the beach where burger king now is.I used to party with Donnie at the route 40 parties all the time..With muck adn shit..blah blah..
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update with pics

04:50pm 16/04/2005

mood:

Ching chang bing bang

So lately I have been doing alot of mixing..got some new cds and recs...
Remixed drop it like its hot...wit some hot dnb..
new mix available for give away...let me know if you want it...
Tracks by:John B,Klute,Greg Packer,Scalar,Pariah,Phazer,Soul Purpose,And this hot ass old sgool track by unknown..
Been getting the thing done lately..you know
My baby bought me this rad bob marley record last nite..and I had to repay her very VERY nicely last nite...I feel better now... I love spending nites in bed with my Rys I sleep so good and comfy....
Me N Jay Jay=wild times at sonar....
Saw MSI monday nite was fucking rad..DC miss that place...
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real..life...udate....call.me fucking sick....but its real

10:04am 12/04/2005

mood:

dream land..only place I love

So here is a real fucking Eye opener!
If you were hoping this was a picture update sorry...Fuck you...Don't bitch.
Yes I am being a fucking dick.....To everyone....
So close your eyes.. really try this....
think about me...sitting in a dark room with one record spinning...on a dimly lit turntable...
dRUGS ....spread and smeared across the other..while slowly spinning in the repeatative circle...
Now keep them closed...listenn....can you hear that?
Listen...>SHIC_SHIC.....Close them....BOOMMM>>>
Now picture blood and brains splattered painting the most beautiful picture ever to be seen through eyes..
Closed eyes...
Closed heart.........Happy Things.....
A child sits alone....why must things be this way..mommy....why?
Why...has everything..good...turned to evil.....?
My eyes bleed on the inside...everytime I awake...to another day..in this contradictive world..of liers and cheaters....
Haters..and beggers....Beggers can be chosers.....
Losers will be losers....we are all lost..losers....
where do we go from here?
Who do we speak to?why do we speak?
you might even ask the quesion I asked 1,000 times before->Why are we here...and how long till it ends..
We all sing sad songs atleast once in our life......fuckers....babys....pussies......children...
you are all children......dying too......you don't see it or think it but you are......
some of us are halfway there...
But for now...I will sit and wait...wait..and wait.......think and pollute myself...thing called body and soul...has no favor in being here....with any of you.....Saviors.....I am the Savior......Savior..of my self....
Saving my sellf from all the pretty things....you all want me to be.....Pretty....Well you know..
Pretty is pretty damn sorry....so.....when you sleep tonite...I hope you all think of this and dream the most...beuatiful thing...Death...til death do us part.....
Pray for us sinners...for the hour of the beast...may be soon...present....
Time is near......evil is within...EVIL IS WITHIN

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Fun at Jen's,Sonar,and Jay Jay's ; ]

09:18pm 08/04/2005

mood:

ready

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( let us begin )

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